You know when all of you were classmates, it's like there's this bond you feel you can never get rid of and you're never sick of seeing each other everyday. And then it's kinda a part of life where you just have to go on and stop being each other's classmates. And you feel sad but promise each other that you will meet up, and you will never ever forget each other.

I'm sure i met good people in B6, i'm sure we created a strong bond. I'm sure i promised myself never to ever forget them, and those times we had last year. All those people, esp hazelin fawnia shuuy wanny yikiat & jonathan. It's so sad because even i can't believe it, now when i see wanny and fawn.. it's as if last year didn't existed.. we weren't even hi-bye friends. And the rest, when was the last time we sat together and just crap the whole evening away? When was the last time i laughed at hazelin's lameness? When was the last time i took the bus with fawn and getting surprise at how we always think of the same things? When was the last time i even text shuuy and yikiat? When was the last time i hugged wanny? Even jonathan, the last person i ever think i will lose contact with.. why was i even sad that he has found his own friends that could be even better people than me?

And the promise 4 of us (me shuuy fawn and hazelin) made, that we said to meet at least once per month.. what about it?

I've already lost my secondary school friends once. And it took me a year to realize how stupid i was to think they didn't wanted me as a friend. It took me so long to know people like pam (who's excited even when i told her i'm cooking for her when she knows i can't cook for nuts) existed?

How many years will it take us again this time?

I think it's me.. some point of people's life they may want to be there for me, but they won't be around always. Not cos they are heartless but because they found people who's more worth it than me and soon they just realize what a bad friend i am. But i am happy for all of them, at least they've moved on and found better people.. not like me who's still dwelling on the past and blaming myself for everything that happened.

I will accept it, i will. I hope all of you forgive me for breaking the promises i made.. not because i don't want to but because i can't anymore.

I can't be greedy. How many pams will there be in the world? Other than her i don't think i can ever find another person who will forever think i'm a good friend to them. But then again i should be glad, at least there's this one person i know i can count on through thick and thin.. forever. Love you.